Two years Since My Baby Left Us

Hello All, Today is August 29,2009. Not a good day. Today marks my son second Anniversary and it's so sad. Today is one of the worse days of my life . We will be having a Memorial for him at his place of Rest. And every year it rains. Today it also rain and it poured down right at the same prayer as last year. That's a blessing for him and all of the loved ones that shared this special day. There were tears everywhere. And also, I'll like to say that people say within the years the pain will decrease but that's not true as the years go by it gets harder and harder to cope with my son's death. It's a pain that never will go away. I have a huge emptiness in my heart that will never get filled. My son Jose was the greatest. He would do anything for you he had the biggest heart, well mannered, very respectful, a wonderful son, a loving father to his beautiful daughter Uniq' and the greatest brother anyone would love to have. We all Love you

Hers's a poem for you Baby I Will Always Love You.

On the Wings of Dreams

On the Wings of Dreams
I'm flying free
with a dreamer's dream,
To a land without fear, darkness, and doubt;
Where shadows and hauntings
of all time and space,
Are rainbows with colors that endlessly grace...
happiness, hope, and all joys to embrace.

A land with no storms, without pouring rains,
where changes abound and great comfort remains;
Where all hate is replaced,
all questions erased;
Where new memories are shaped,
with wonderous light...
of romance and love, before out of sight;
A dreamland of heaven without jaded thought,
where butterflies are free,
their colors uncaught;
With milk oceans to see,
fresh air to breathe;
Countless flowers and trees,
fragrancing the soft whispering breeze.
No more webs of deceit,
where lovers have fought;
No battles of hopelessness,
where all love is lost.

Maybe our dreams hold the land of our thoughts,
Or maybe our hearts have learned lessons well taught.
It is the stairway to heaven,
this dreamland we seek...
Hopefully for all is more than a peek...
at a future end to the ultimate pain,
of great loyalty and love...
lost and estranged.

This dance of life I endlessly write,
Is an end to the pain, and every soul's light.
To a life fulfilled at the end of our time...
to dream second chances for new love we can find.
Here's to all of us ending our heavenly climb,
With the company of romance and love light sublime.

Love You Much Mom

"Don't Tell Me"

Don't tell me that you understand,
Don't tell me that you know.
Don't tell me that I will survive,
How I will surely grow.

Don't tell me this is just a test,
That I am truly blessed.
That I am chosen for the task,
Apart from all the rest.

Don't come at me with answers
That can only come from me,
Don't tell me how my grief will pass,
That I will soon be free.

Don't stand in pious judgment
Of the bonds I must untie,
Don't tell me how to grieve,
Don't tell me when to cry.

My life is filled with selfishness,
My pain is all I see,
But I need you and your love...
Unconditionally.

Accept me in my ups and downs,
I need someone to share,
Just hold my hand and let me cry,
And say, "My friend, I care."

"A Poem For My Son"

"I know sometime's I forget
"to tell you, you were heaven sent
"how when they placed you in my arm's
"My heart was so content
"You've filled my life with so much joy
"How I love you, my darling boy
"You are a miracle, sent from up above
"You have me heart and soul,and with all my love
"You've brought me comfort,when nothing else could
"Your everything that's wonderful and good
"Each day, you learn so many thing's new
"and I am truly, so proud of you
"When faced with a choice of right or wrong
"You remember your value's and stand so strong
"This bond that we have, is special, and rare
"It's so special, because, both of us care
"Eleven year's old and quite the little man
"I know you'll succeed, because, you believe you can
"As the year's pass,your strength will be put to the test
"but you believe in God, and your a child who's blessed
"Strive to make all of your dream's come true
"There's nothing "my son", that you can't do
"Wherever you go, along life's journey
"Just look in your heart, and there you will see me.

My Angel In Heaven

Always My Son

You are my son, a part of me, and that will never change,
No matter what you do in life my love will still remain.
I held you as a baby and I looked into your face,
And I knew then, no other one could ever take your place.

I knew then as I held you, you would grow to be a man,
And anything you did in life I’d try to understand.
I knew you would make choices and would follow your own heart,
I only prayed that in your life I’d always have a part.

I knew some things you did in life would give me so much pride,
But also realized some things would tear me up inside.
I only want the best for you and want you to succeed,
And want you to find happiness with everything you need.

I can only guide you and give you a helping hand,
You will choose the path to take now that you are a man.
Along the road that you will choose, whatever that may be,
Just remember this my son that you can count on me.

I will not try to push you to live life in my own stride,
I only promise I will love you and stand by your side.
I know that you will make mistakes and life is full of them,
But realize my love for you will not let me condemn.

I know this life's not perfect and we do the best we can,
Just realize I love you and I’ll always understand.
I knew one day you would grow up and you would leave my nest,
I will do what I can for you and let God do the rest.

I have held you in my arms and done the best I can,
Now I pray that God will hold you now that you're a man.
Just remember in my heart you are a special one,
And I will always proudly tell the world, "this is my son."

My Baby Jose